Monday, January 27, 2014

My Autumn was...

It has been about 5 months since I last made a blog post.
A lot has happened since then. I got engaged to Michael. The next day we got the news that my younger cousin died. About a month after that Michael's mother passed away. Then I started the season of my job where it's 60 hour weeks for 4 months straight.

The deaths were a surprise to me. No one called me to make sure I had room in my planner for someone I love to die. They just went.
And it occurred to me that human beings are going to keep doing that as long as I am in this world.
I strongly believe that humans are eternal, but when someone that you love deeply dies suddenly, you can't help but feel like humans are incredibly temporary.

So while I'm on this earth, I want to make more time for people.

I did not finish that one painting because I wanted to chat with my brother for a while. I didn't start that drawing because I'd rather have dinner with my cousin. I didn't stay up doodling because rest is so important and when I sleep, I sometimes get to dream about these loved ones and that is a gift and maybe the closest thing I'll get to hanging out with them until we'll all in Heaven together.

I have come to realize that I value humans more than I value art. That might might make me less of an artist but I've never felt like more of human.

So that's mostly why I haven't been blogging about my art adventures.
But I'm coming back a little bit because I am finding collaborative projects are a wonderful way to combine my love of loved ones with my love of art. Plus art helps the grieving process. Plus there are some random tidbits here and there. Plus art keeps happening to me whether I like it or not, so I might as well blog about it.

Oh! And in 2 months or so, my name will be “Sarah Louise Burlhis” so I'll have to get a new domain name and all of that. Just fyi.


That's all. I didn't think I could just up and start blogging again without some explanation of where I've been all this time.